The Unwritten Journey

Nobody cares, but you, only you. You may not like what your parents want. In my experience, it's hard for me to accept everything my parents desire. I just thought that I didn't like it when my parents told me to do everything they wanted. I mean, my mommy and my dad are actually always supporting me, but my grandma has a different point of view. I have lived with my granny since I was 6. For example: I love science, especially the biology field, but my granny wants me to study English with her reason she told me that English is an international language, and I can do anything if I can speak English well. I have a long story for this, I just do not want to share everything here, because it's my secret, yeah.

Now, I am 24, and I'm still studying the English subject. In fact, today I really like English, I don't know why, it just happened to me suddenly. At that time, I had a dream to pursue my studies outside Lampung, but my granny and my parents never allowed me. 

"Can speak the words on your lips, drench yourself in words unspoken. Live your life with arms wide open. Today is where your book begins," Song by Natasha Bedingfield (Unwritten).

Everyone is really sensitive right now, of course, because they have a feeling they think that they have freedom in their life, so I can't even control it! It's okay. One thing that I should evaluate is my character. I always make a joke, maybe it will hurt someone's heart. I will never do that again. In my opinion, it's an extremely dangerous action. May Allah always protect my mouth.

Sometimes, I don't want to make the problem more complicated, which causes something so different. You will be confused by many people. First, you still need people in your life, they may help you when you feel so frustrated or you feel down. Second, you can't expect a good reaction from somebody; humans are in error. Third, be kind to everyone you meet; in the final analysis, it's between you and your God (Allah SWT).

These are my favorite hadith about kindness:

(1). Prophet Muhammad (peace and blessings be upon him) said, “Kindness is not to be found in anything but that it adds to its beauty, and it is not withdrawn from anything but it makes it defective.” - Sahih Muslim.

(2). Prophet Muhammad (peace and blessings be upon him) said, “Whoever wishes to be saved from Hell and admitted into Paradise as desired, they should believe in Allah and the Last Day and treat other people the way they would like to be treated.” - Sahih Muslim.

(3). Prophet Muhammad (peace and blessings be upon him) said, “A man suffered from thirst while he was walking on a journey. When he found a well, he climbed down into it and drank from it. Then he came out and saw a dog lolling its tongue from thirst and licking the ground. The man said: This dog has suffered thirst just as I have suffered from it. He climbed down into the well, filled his shoe with water, and caught it in his mouth as he climbed up. Then he gave the dog a drink. Allah appreciated this deed, so he forgave him.” They said, “O Messenger of Allah, is there a reward for charity even for the animals?” The Prophet said, “Yes, in every creature with a moist liver is a reward for charity.” - Sahih Bukhari.

(4). Prophet Muhammad (peace and blessings be upon him) said, “Every Act of Kindness is Charity.” - Sahih Bukhari.

(5). Prophet Muhammad (peace and blessings be upon him) said, “None of you believes (completely) until he loves for his brother what he loves for himself.” - Sahih Bukhari.

For me, my parents and my family are very important; without them, I'm nobody. I accept what my parents want, that's the best way for me to pass all the challenges in my amazing life. It seems impossible, but Allah knows your track. As the first child, I have a hot temper, I'm too sensitive to facing the struggles, and I cannot respond if someone is mad at me by screaming. 

I love calmness, and I like a person who has a soft spoken word, which makes me fall in love. I have to control my emotions, and I have to be more restful. The activity I enjoy is listening to someone's story. I'm interested in listening to my friends' stories. Listening can create deep connections between two people. Listening also helps each other.

Now, I just want to focus on my studies and make my parents proud of me. While studying, I pray to Allah to send me my sweetie husband, Aamiin. He may focus on his career, but both he and I are still doing a good job. We can do it, Inshaallah. But love, can we meet as soon as possible? Hueee, I miss you so much. There are so many things to do, including what I should do next. I want to do anything without being feared. Have you ever felt something like you want, but your family doesn't?. From now on, we must consider everything. If you really want to meet me, please tell me. wkwkwk.

See you, honey. Wish you luck, Zara!